Everything so simple, so white and clean and sterile. nothing is messy, nothing is personal, and u have no secrets. when u have lists on ur bed and lists on ur door state every single thing that is wrong with ur body and ur mind and all the reasons ur there. all the drugs u must take, all the drugs u cant take. what methods of disipline they can use and who ur supervisors are here. who controls u and who holds ur puppet steering-piece. these lists haunt u becos they are always here and u will never get away from them. u can never feel like ur achieving when there is always so much proving how wrong u are.
Dienstag, Dezember 1
when hospital becomes ur home
Everything so simple, so white and clean and sterile. nothing is messy, nothing is personal, and u have no secrets. when u have lists on ur bed and lists on ur door state every single thing that is wrong with ur body and ur mind and all the reasons ur there. all the drugs u must take, all the drugs u cant take. what methods of disipline they can use and who ur supervisors are here. who controls u and who holds ur puppet steering-piece. these lists haunt u becos they are always here and u will never get away from them. u can never feel like ur achieving when there is always so much proving how wrong u are.
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Schwanzlutscher fühlt sich traurig beim Phsychiatrischeklinik. Du wusst, wie du es enden kannst. Warum hast du nicht getan es noch? Muss ich mehr sagen oder was?
AntwortenLöschenHeute sah ich die sexy Iselin ;)
Blaue Jeans, schwarzer Singulett, Marine Jacke, grau scardf, braune Haarband, lila Converse. Mein Schwanz wartet, bis ich alle, die Kleidung abnehmen kann. Wenn Maxy weg ist, kann ich du mit meinen Schwanz zerreißen, babygirl<3 ;)
^ He is the king of nothing, just a product of social decline. "King", go stick your Schwanz in a pencil sharpener - I know it will fit.
AntwortenLöschenYou never cease to amaze me with your writing Mäx, it is so full of organized emotion. Do not say things like you will never get away from these lists- they are only temporary. Maybe one day you will move past them, but for some you may not. For the ones that you do not move past, they will be more under your control and you will be the one with a steering wheel, not these people.
Maybe from this setting you cannot believe you are achieving, but if you listen to others maybe you will believe it. I say you are achieving because I have seen such emotion evolve in you, as well as great skill in language and compassion for others- whether human or animal! What those lists say (Phobien, Panikattacke, Trauma, et cetera) does not change what you have achieved already. The fact that you can achieve these things WHILE suffering from problems is amazing, and when you are better and away from some of these problems, I am sure you will achieve even more :]
Veilleicht ja, Mäxy weg ist aber er der einzige Junge dass ich will ist. Mädchen würden nicht einmal an dir ausschauen, vor allem wenn gibt es ein Junge so schoner und einzigartig und so erstaunlich wie Mäxy dabei. Hau ab wiederbitte.
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